I think my faith is misunderstood. I think that my faith is misleading in a way that people close to me can’t understand where it came from. And I can meet them there in that thought because I have not always been the easiest person. At times I was temperamental, judgmental, and rude. But I’m not that girl anymore I have grown up and grown out of that isolated way of thinking. The selfish way of responding to situations is mostly gone now. I’m not perfect so I’m sure I’ll make mistakes along my way but for the most part, I live peacefully. Because I refuse to judge others or to let judgment push my mind into situations, I don’t really want to be in. I make an active choice to open my mind always when I’m making decisions. Especially! when those decisions and conversations are to be had with my son in mind. I’m not a perfect lady. But I feel like being aware of myself and my limitations, planning goals for my future, and reminding myself that there is always a little human watching me, has, in fact, made me a better person. I have learned to take my own inventory, but not the inventory of others. Believe me, I still have those judgmental thoughts, oh Yes! I just choose to keep them to myself and to spread a better future for my son, instead of trash like my younger self. Another thing I’ve learned in this life is that you should treat all others as good as you treat yourself or BETTER because that’s how you keep your friendships, that’s how you build those righteous relationships. So to me, my faith is no mystery. I have grown into it as I’m growing into better thoughts, better actions, for better reasons. I think at 35, I’m learning pretty quick. I know the person that I want to be! The lifestyle I want to represent! The wife and mother I am and “Most of all” I know I am a child of God like I’m supposed to be. I learned most of what I know from my aunts and my beautiful mother! Those women have dealt with so much, given it up so much, and sacrificed even more than that. I say sacrificed with the most understanding behind it because that’s exactly what it was. I am lucky, not blessed to have the family that I have! My aunts and my mom would do anything for me, and have in fact at times given up things to protect me! I have had the opportunity to watch them as guardians and as grandparents, and I’ve gotten to take from their life to build mine. They taught their children through their strengths and their weaknesses, using themselves as examples at times. As any good parent should because as humans were not expected to be perfect we’re supposed to react as perfectly as possible. so I have respect for their strength, I have a love for their giving nature, and I am most proud of their perseverance! Thank you for always being there to fight with us and for us! I love you guys more than u will ever know!
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